Today I smiled at my own reflection in the mirror.

I was alone.

This hasn’t happened in a long time, a very long time. Don’t get me wrong, I smile all the time, everyday. I smile at strangers, I smile at friends, I smile flicking through pictures on my phone. But it’s been a long time since I smiled, really smiled at my reflection in the mirror and meant it.

I don’t even know what it means but it felt good.

I’ve missed writing. I’ve been scared, though. Scared to write because it forces me to face my emotions. But yes, this is me facing my emotions.

How are you?

It’s Lent, one of my favorite seasons. I love Lenten hymns. I love saying the Stations of the Cross. I like the results that come from the typical Lenten observances. Simply trying to reduce my usual indulgences has a profound effect on my peace of mind and my productivity. I wonder why I don’t practice the same ascetism all year round.

I have many things to say, but I don’t know what to say. I just felt like I had to write today, and put this out here. To break this jinx.

Thank you all for your kind wishes on my marriage and my brother’s passing. Your words gave me courage, you are one of the reasons I can smile.

I’m going to try an experiment. I’m going to let you decide what I should write on next.

1. My Life Audit and the “Resolutions” I came up with or,
2. A primer on travelling alone in a strange country or,
3. The Problem with Zeus and Amadioha

Let me know in the comments’ box. 😀